My heart is broken…

Many of you won’t understand what i’m saying but some of you will.

I knew this day would come and with every day that past the reality became clearer. It would end up being the worst day I have ever experienced in my life and i’ve had many horrific experiences over the years to compare it with.

On Friday 9th July I lost my fur baby

My loyal companion whom was always pleased to see me with her body wiggle of joy and wagging tail, she truly loved me unconditionally as I did her.

All her life she suffered with anxiety, I couldn’t leave her at home because of the uncontrollable panic attacks she suffered since being in quarantine for 6 months. Shopping, going out anywhere, she would be my copilot, sat in her bed on the front passenger seat of my car quietly staring at me as I sung along to the radio. For some reason, she felt safe in my car and was happy to be left there while I shopped etc with no panic attacks in sight. She became my shadow.

For 16 years we stood together, she was always there to lick my cheek as I cried, to snuggle up to me at night and to listen intently while I rambled on, she truly was my best friend.

With my eyes full and my heart breaking and as her little furry body lay in my arms for the very last time, within moments she had became my angel, she was free and flying high over the rainbow.

Nothing and I mean nothing could have ever prepared me for the pain I felt as my heart broke into a million pieces. The loss was unlike anything else I have every experienced.

My fur baby was loved beyond words and although she is no longer here beside me, forever she will live in my heart.

My fur baby’s ashes were brought back to me the same day which has been a great help and I can’t thank the company, Tendring Pet Cremation enough for their compassion, dignity and respect. There caring nature and attention to detail goes far beyond words. Thank you Tending.

At the start I said most of you won’t get it, before you judge and tell me it’s only a dog, I can tell you she was nicer than most humans.

When you’ve lived alone with your pet for 16 years through thick and thin then maybe you’ll get my words.

This memorial will help a little more so thank for your time and understanding.

Kindly, I ask you not to text me etc with your wishes, its too raw and hard for me to stop my eyes from revealing my heart felt pain.

Sue x